Ruin Is The Road To Transformation

I have decided that I will from now on always turn what we automatically think is negative and turn it into positive. I feel like I usually have done that throughout my life but when things get hard it is easy to focus on the negative. This year I think must have been the hardest year to get through. or at least the most challenging so far. I feel like each year as I get older I continue to say this. But recently I watched Eat Pray Love where Julia Robert's has a beautiful line. . "ruin is the road to transformation" so my perspective now is that rather than each year ruining me and each little negative thing destroying me, I am merely being transformed into the person who God wants me to be. Ruin meaning destroyed? no. . . no it means being renewed over and over. Which is what the Lord does for us constantly is to take us and renew us. I feel ruined right now in a way, but I know that God is trying to open my eyes to something much greater and beautiful that I can ever imagine! I dream of the day that I can be on the mission field helping people who are sick and need help. I tell myself that God is trying to teach me patience. I feel like I've been waiting forever! I dream of the day when i can get married and have a family like every single one of my friends. But I know that is far off in my story. My friends ask me if I'm sad, and yes sometimes, but I can't be for so long because I am overtaken by how blessed I am! I want my story to be different. I don't want to be like everyone else. So every day I will continue to eat pray and love and let this life constantly ruin me so that I can be transformed into the person God made me to be.